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Thursday 10 January 2013

I hate my life!!:(


Have you ever felt like every time you are doing something and so are so close and all a sudden a huge wind starts up and carries you further away from your goal. Like Ulysses you can see the land of his home birth and Neptune is so angry starts a huge gust of wind and away he goes just to be happy to see him suffer. 
 I have been struggling with my weight for years and to top with that, I had to deal with my mother who is ill and now I found out that my job is telling me that they will not work with my schedule for going to college to get my degree. The  worst part is that I already payed for the courses and now I am going to drop them. I am so tired of having obstacles in my way for the simplest things about just getting an education. I am so tired of having to take care of my mother and making sure everything is done around the house. I am so tired of being responsible and taking care of other peoples' needs and they don't acknowledge that I am doing something. I AM TIRED!!!
I am like Ulysses who has the misfortune of angering the gods. They (the gods) put hurdles in his way to make sure he does not succeed in his mission of arriving home. I sometimes pray and wonder if God hears me, if he can simply say, "say you have suffered enough, here you may now go". When, is God going to say that, I am simply here in this world. My mission is I guess is to suffer and have no peace. I am not Ulysses, I do not have that much hope anymore. I have been taking care of myself and my family since I was seventeen years old and now I am twenty three. I am tired and I am about to give up.
                       I AM TIRED!!

Tuesday 8 January 2013

A new day and a new way to live

 I have been struggling with my weight for almost all my life. It has been a battle, that I have lost countless times. Today is the day, I stop losing the war and begin trying to win. I have decided for once and for all I am going to lose weight and feel comfortable in my skin. This blog is going to be a place where I express my feelings and how am doing in my weight loss battle. I will be inserting pictures when my camera comes so blog is not only words.